tattoo your name across my heart; SHAH.

sighs...

2010-04-20T20:13:00.002+08:00

i know my mum is very upset with me about my decision. its clear after knowing that she told big brother that she's disappointed in me. hmm.. i can see it through the cold shoulder she's giving me. but she got it all wrong. the one i'm holding grudges against is dad, not her. and she thought it was her that im having grudges against. and it is dad that i've never regarded as a father. why? because unlike other babies who get their father to read prayers when they're given birth, i don't. where was he? among the three of us, only i don't get that. and amongst the three of us, i didn't get to sleep with him when i was younger. then two months after his release, he start to hit us already. what is this? who gets that? and when i was at darul ma'wa, he didn't allow mum to come and visit me. what is he trying to prove?! that is the reason why im all grudges against him. i don't have any grudges against mum. i know she conceived me for the 9months and battled with her life to give life to me. and she was there through out my happy and sad times. but she just doesn't know the real truth.i really hope she finds this out soon. i really missed the her i used to know. been crying every night before sleep because of this.

ohh god, please help me in soothing her heart. and get her to know this misunderstanding. ;'(

one week.

2010-03-16T18:05:00.004+08:00

enough of fighting. since we parted till we meet again, there never was peace between us. fights, fights and more fights. worst i've ever been through. seriously, since we parted, things were never fine. like i said in the last post, i wanted so much to meet hubby. had told him earlier on but we didn't manage to meet. i waited till 2145hrs. and i actually lied to him about being at marine parade. i sure did miss him and had a hard time sleeping that night and the rest of the nights. from the moment i placed my feet at paya lebar, i teared. as i talked to gf een and him as well. but nothing occurred to him. talked to him otp. then texted him all the rest of the while. unwillingly, for sure. had told afad to help me out with looking after him then. only way of sleeping was to hug my nike sweater that had the smell of him for the next 5days. in all of the 5days, nothing was right. arguments after arguments. from confessions to saying sorry. harsh words came out from my mouth. like seriously, it hurt me to hurt him. i couldn't believe that it was actually me saying all those to him. i thought it was some spirits possessed in my body. seriously, things almost come to an end that night. but after chat with afad who comforted me and said he would talk to hubby, i calmed down. helping taufiq to finish up his drawing and listening to songs at the same time really helped. the thought of baby. and he said sorry yesterday. i really hoped he meant his sorry. and try his best to not do it again. try to quit at the same time. i love him too much and im not ready to lose him to anything. he fetched me from home. our initial plan was to just get and mc for him and spend the rest of the day together, just the two of us. but he came with afad. after which we went to fetch dayah. lucky thing our place is not that far. still in the same estate, Bedok. off to Ang Mo Kio for brunch. both hubby and me had chicken rice. i didn't manage to finish mine up and so hubby finished it up for me. then we went to city square for desert at swensen's, afad's treat. had great fun and laughter. hubby's first time eating at a place like that. heeh. abey nak gatal dgn pmpn philippines. in front of me pulak tuu. hahah! he's always like that, im kinda used to it already. after desert, walked around then went to mustafa to check out the price for dayah's itouch. no plans after that so dayah decided on karaoke-ing at grandlink. FUN FUN FUN! got to sing tabah, cinta ini membunuhku, duet with hubby to jangan pisahkan and dua insan. then hubby sent me home. enough for the day. exhausted!

dearest hubby, remember that i love you so much and that im not willing to live without you or lose you to anything or anyone. I LOVE YOU.

4 days.

2010-03-09T13:27:00.006+08:00

Saturday; 6th March 2010 - Tuesday; 9th March 2010.
woke up early to make it all seem real. though it disrupting my sleep. but by all means. lepaked at eunos ALONE until i know what to do. which is karaoke with iqah cat at 3pm. settled ez-link card problem first then off to bedok. wasted time at bedok library, finishing up my movie, '27 dresses'. hubby called to ask me to meet him at 7pm at paya lebar. then off to meet iqah cat at inter. then off to grandlink. catched up a lot with her. i knew i disappointed her. well, i was equally disappointed with myself too. haiss.. karaoked for an hour. ended at 5pm. then followed iqah cat to changi airport to meet her friends. then all four of us boarded the train where i went to paya lebar and them to bugis, i guess. my keychain broke. :( met hubby. slept in the van otw to woodlands checkpoint to fetch dayah. after which we went makan at sembawang. then to afad's place. hubby complained of ulcer at his lips. and sprained wrist hence thats why he took off the bracelet i bought for him. :( whats all this showing man? whats the meaning behind all off this? after changing, the six of us, dayah and afad, baby and din, hubby and myself, "movie-marathoned". first to sleep, baby. then dayah. then afad taking turns with din. hubby and i were the last man standing. :DDD we watched "My Name Is Khan" sad story but a bit too draggy. the movie ended at arnd 2.45am. when all went to sleep, me and hubby didnt. we stayed up. he played games on lappy and i watched movie. then dah mendak sgt the movie, i joined hubby to the games. hehh. we challenged. sape kalah kene kiss. hah!

first night.

played games all the way till morning. showered and continued playing games. hubby was supposed to shower after me. but he pulled me to join him in the games. then after he lost, he showered. we planned to get breakfast for them. drove to macs to get breakfast. plus afad's nasi lemak. after breakfast, helped him with washing of the van. from 11+am up to almost 2pm. tu pon psl afad dah call ckp nak gi sentosa kul 2pm. so we quickly got back to afad's place and showered. then left for sentosa. detoured to fetch afad's mak at woodlands. then off to sentosa. skyride and luge x3 rides = $20!!! believe it or not?!?

Sentosa; Skyride.
after everything, the boys went playing soccer at the beach. it was so beautiful until hubby drank vodka in front of me. i told him earlier that i didn't like it. well, at least not in front of me. so i was in no mood. watched the beautiful sunset whilst trying to calm myself down.

beautiful sunset.
so much fun had to be spoiled with just a simple action. after last luge and skyride ride, we all went to KTM for dinner. hubby noticed the change of mood in me. i just reasoned it out by saying that im sleepy. but he knew it wasn't the truth. he read my sent items to ayda. it read 'can i be mad at my bf for drinking in front of me? when i already told him that i didn't like it.' and so we didn't talk. zero communication. both of us didn't have dinner. and they were all like, why?!? then i was like, tk lapar uhh. ngantok je. so after which, we went to cash studio at ming arcade. karaoked till 1am. we were not in good terms so we didn't sing much. we dueted on nana and achik's memori berkasih. :D and i sang another song; azharina's elegi sepi. then we went off. baby and din went their own way. afad sent dayah then kemek and he went home leaving hubby to drive me home. as soon as i got into the van, i laid my head on the pillow, lala-land cam greeting me. and i was awaken when hubby asked me to sit in front. then i continued sleeping on his lap. he didn't really send me to een's place that night. i didn't know of anyway to get hold of her. both our hp battery were dead. so we just slept in the van till morning came. romance in between. then he sent me to een's place. and i slept like pig until 1pm!!! woke up, lunch and then back to sleep!!! had dinner date with kak eiyra, kak fatt, dyanah and kak noi. but then i was too tired. AND MY EZLINK CARD WAS WITH HUBBY! how am i supposed to go over? in the end i used my transport money and cabbed down. dinner was superb! after dinner with them, i bussed down to paya lebar to meet hubby. he told me to meet him there and he slept! URGH!!! and so we spent another night together in the van at the same carpark, same lot. i was sleeping until suddenly, i couldn't sleep. told huby of it, but all he did was continue sleeping. it okayy. he's probably too tired. and he had to work again the nest day, which is today. and we woke up at 730am. he was like, OHH SHIT! then drove me to yishun mrt and dropped me there. i can't help but cry on my way to bedok in bus 854. i just can't imagine how im going to go to sleep in days to come without hubby by me. after all the three nights sleeping with him. listening to his heart beating. listening to him breath. his warm arms hugging me. watch him sleep. sweat as he sleep. wiped his sweat and all. im not prepared for tonight. i'd give my all to have just one more night with him. ;(

i do.

my ♥.

swear i never want this moment to end.

first night!

2010-03-05T22:54:00.003+08:00

woots~!! can't wait to spend the saturday night with hubby! just the two of us! :DDD *kening up-up* ^^ hehh.
dearest hubby, please know that whatever you dear wifel has told you about cancelling her plans, if she has any, just to spend the night with you came deep down from her heart. and that she loves you no matter what!

what now?

2010-03-02T21:12:00.003+08:00

so what now? after not getting to talk to baby boo for more than two days, now another problem. hais... fights after fights. really hoping that all these happenings are just another concrete stepping stone for me to further strengthen my relationship with him. i am definitely not letting these happenings cause further harm to my relationship. but for this to not to happen, i will of course need co-operation from baby boo. so far now, he hasn't want to co-operate yet. and i don't know why. maybe he isn't aware of what i'm trying to implant here.

*dear love angels of GOD,
please help me in all these.
dear God, you know that whatever that has happened to me is up to its maximum. not that i'm not being responsible, but i know i won't be able to cope it well. and i need help from you. you're the only one i can turn to and seek help from.
i realise i have been pulling myself far away from you. its not an easy feeling. being far away from you is my greatest fear. ILY.

updates.

2010-02-20T10:39:00.002+08:00

14th Feb '10; Sunday.
valentine's. thought i couldn't meet baby boo. he called at 4pm. all of a sudden. and then asked me out. and i was from hmmm... to WHOOOO~!!!! hee! he fetched me from void deck and we went to meet yan and yani at mustafa center. wait for them to finish eating then off to their place for a while. baby boo had something to discuss with yan. then off for romance. :DDDD and then home. mum and dad are such a nag! listened for a while then off to "sleep".
15th Feb '10; Monday.
4am in the morning, baby boo called. he just got back from serangoon with afad. and he said that the card was so sweet. ((: and he wore the bangle already. :DDDDDD he said, "patut lah u slalu tanya i pakai gelang ke tak..." and all i did was smile. :DDDD then at 7am, mum woke me up to go kubur. haiyah.. i delayed until around 8plus when abang got back then i got up and showered. swear i didn't have the mood at all. we went to first abang's, shaz's late dad's, uncle ayie's and arwah tok man's. cleaned the area then off to jurong point. everybody including fadhli was hungry. initially wanted to eat at banquet. but then closed for CNY. so off to swensens instead. fadhli insisted on eating at LJS. haiyah... this boy uhh... when eating, call from grandmama saying that grandada was having fever. so we had to go over because some people were not responsible enough to take care of their father! after hair cut for abbang, fadhli and dad, we went to grandada's place. and brought him to the hospital. got back at around 12+midnight. and called baby boo. afad asked us out to sentosa. couple's retreat. LOL! but i know i couldn't go. firstly, because parents don't allow. secondly, because grandada wasn't feeling well and i wanted to take care of him. so two days of not meeting baby boo. :(
16th Feb '10; Tuesday.
mum was still on PH. then lepaked at home. sleep, eat, sleep eat, sleep, wake up, got ready for grandada's.
17th feb '10; Wednesday.
mum and dad's 20th wedding anniversary. got back home.
18th Feb '10; Thursday.
went for check up. FUCKING DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF! hais... met baby boo. and got him all upset too. :(((((
19th Feb '10; Friday.
socio exam. nad's place to help with clean up to prepare for today's kak nadya's birthday party and maulud.

going to get ready for the party.
supposed to come early.
toodles.

dear love angels of God,
please tell baby boo how sorry i am for everything. be it my fault or not. im working very hard on getting to make your dreams a reality. and please... tell him how much i love him!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.

2010-02-14T09:22:00.002+08:00

happy valentine's all! a love day, more lovely spent with your loved ones. unfortunately, my hopes of spending today with baby boo were crashed. he had to work. finding extra money.
i finally told him whatever i felt about 'baby'. i have been wanting to do so for a very long time. and finally, on the eve of valentine's, i did so.

dear love angels of God, thank you for your effort in making my dreams this valentine's come true. sadly, thin didn't turn out as planned. it okay though, I THINK! despite being disappointed, i know that things happens for a reason. just keep protecting him from all harm and keep him safe. if you ever have the chance, tell him that i love him so much!

b,

I LOVE YOU.

i miss baby boo.

2010-02-13T19:14:00.003+08:00

swear to god i miss baby boo!
:(
he hasn't call me since we parted last night and he went to work. then his prepaid low. i toped up for him alrd. hmmm... waiting for him to return my call now. :(

loving you too much.

2010-02-12T23:31:00.006+08:00

yesterday's plan was not achieved. but managed to achieve it today! WITH BABY BOO! :DDDDDD smiles miles long. whee~!!

i told him that i was hoping to get to watch it with him. and he made it a reality. told him to call me as soon as he wakes up. but he texted me instead. asking me to meet him at woodlands at 1pm. and at that point of time i was finishing my project. the v'day card to be exact. then i waited for dyanah to come back then we went out together. and we left home at about 12.10pm. WTH?! how am i supposed to reach woodland from eunos in less than an hours time? and so dyanah decided to give me a lift to commonwealth mrt. before we board the cab, baby boo called to ask where was i. and i said im on my way to take the cab. and he said, what for? just take the train. and i replied, im late already what do you expect? after dropping off at commonwealth mrt, i trained down to woodlands to meet him. he was shocked by the fact that i took such a short time to reach. and we COINCIDENTALLY wore black together. ((: PERFECT! got the tickets and went for lunch at KFC. we weren't in favour of that fast food restaurant. but yeah, i was craving for it and he knows it. so he said he layankn. thanks ehh...... after makan, smoked and then toured around the causeway point. we had so much time. an hour before the movie starts, we decided to play arcade games. and he chose to play tennis. the freaking game console was super slow that even after half an hour, he havent finish playing the game. what i mean here was that it was literally s-l-o-w m-o-t-i-o-n. haiyah... after a while, we decide to leave it playing on its own. so after that we went for a smoke and then up to the cinemas. surprisingly, the cinema halls aren't opened yet. so we waited outside. and he decided to get us some popcorns and wedges. the movie was great. funny like hell siah! haha! TAYLOR SWIFT mcm BIMBO! LOL.after movies, we went smoke and bussed home. baby boo stopped halfway at toa payoh. he had to go to work. as soon as he got off the bus, i feel the incompleteness in me again. i felt empty. like as though im like empty lahh. i bussed the rest of the way home myself. was supposed to meet dyanah, but dont know why she didn't reply to my msges. so yahh.. then thats it. today is a wonderful day.

dearest baby boo,
i really enjoyed today. despite you being so gatal. i loved it. i your imperfections that i love most. but sometimes its kinda irritating lah. heeh. i hope we can have a better time this sunday. loves you sooo much!

dear love angels of God,
please let this sunday be a reality and not just a dream. like i'vesaid before, it my first valentine's with baby boo ad i dont want to disappoint him. i want it to be the best he's ever had. please... can i plead you...?

g'night cupid. safe guard my hubby while im not with him.

Valentine's Day.

2010-02-11T23:56:00.002+08:00

today is the release of Valentine's Day!
OMG! hah1 baby asked me out to it. but he made no promises. lucky he didn't lah. he only woke up at around maghrib like that. like 7plus pm. ape saje yg die buat pon tak tau. hmm.. now its my turn to ask him out to it tmrw! and i really hope to get to fulfill it!!!! nak sgt tgk ngn die. last week ckp ngn nad nak tgk. tapi i say i want to watch with shahnor. then she was like... 'alah... susah ah org ade matair ni... sume dgn matair..' and all i did was laugh. then bile b ajak tgk cite tu semlm i was like, seriously?! OMG! NAK NAK NAK! i'd skip school to watch it with him sehh. but no need for skipping of schools. dah tak skula ponn! hehh. abey ckp org takde duit. b, i ade 50 lah. tnk percaya dtg sini tgk. kalau malas and still tnk percaya, tnye je i. hehh.
dah lah. for today, no school. didn't go out. because i was supposedly waiting for b to call. but he didn't he slept the whole day today! haiyah.. he slept, i also slept. LIKE SWINE! lps mkn lunch je tido sampai ke asar! OMG! FAT PIG SIAHH!! haha! farah didn't go to school. because she was 'supposed' to go for an appointment. but skali her appointment is due on sat. LOL! so she temaned me at home lorh.

dear love angels of God, please please keep my baby safe. and make sure tomorrow's plan of catching Valentine's Day a reality. :))))))

3rd monthasary.

2010-02-10T23:15:00.003+08:00

two hours of nursing lab in school and end at 1100hrs. then off for brunch at koufu with the geng. and off to toa payoh to meet baby boo. makan-ed at macs then off to Lido. as soon as i stepped at that building, the memories of me and wahid came rushing into my mind. one by one. but WTF?! i'm with baby boo at that time and it was our third monthasary. so i didn't allow any of such things to happen. it was our first date to the movies. i gave him his 3rd monthasary present before watching the movie. attached the keychain to his key. we catched My Ex. it was scary lah whey! and i keep covering my face with my cardigan. xP after the movies, we didn't know where to go. so, we walked around town and finally decided to go to Pasir Ris Beach. trained down from orchard. damn, the train was filled with people! i hated it! from Pasir Ris MRT, we walked down to Pasir Ris Beach. through the mini 'nature reserve'. talked as we walked. got to know many facts i didn't know from baby boo. and when we finally reached the beach, there was like very little people lah. ;DDD i wanted to sit at the water breaker. but baby boo insisted that we sit at the bench instead. fine then. he ate some nachos and off he went to sleep on my lap. the wind was super shiok. as he slept, i played with his hair. and i attempted to draw his face. hheh. left the beach at around 2030hrs. walked out to the bustop. he actually wanted to take the sungei api-api route. but then i was like, precautious. so we took another route. takut lah wheyy!! hah! on our way out, i told him how the keychain was supposed to be. as in it's interchangeable; one side reads shahnor and the other reads yasmeen. and he was kinda amazed by that. hah! and i told him it could be a whistle also. but his keychain was already chipped. he dropped it at lido just now. :( this that this that, and i finally reached home at 2200hrs. both of us were tired like hell. all the walking.
sleep time now!

baby,
i really enjoyed today so much. our first movie date. and really, it was my first time going to the beach with my love. i hope we could do this again somtime. (: and tomorrow's valentine's day movie date, i hope we could make it! LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

KRIS ALLEN.

2010-02-09T20:10:00.004+08:00

today, naddy a.k.a skater girl got to meet KRISS ALLEN! cool shit or what?!? hah! as said, school ended at 3pm. and after which, we went to withdraw money and then bought kris allen's gift, which is a puzzle where we can put our personalised message. and at the same time, i went to print photos for mummy and daddy's wedding anniversary card as well as baby boo's v'day card. will upload pictures of it in a later part of the post. then off to koufu for lunch. before ordering our food, we pieced up the puzzle and i helped nad to write the message. then nad had to go off because fadhil fadaroz was waiting for her at CITY HALL! hah! then i ate my chicken rice. and off to tamp to meet ayda and dyanah. collect the bracelet. now, everything is perfect. as in the things i intend to get for baby boo both for v'day and our 3rd monthasary. from the cards, to the keychains to the bracelet. the card is hand made. from plain paper into a card. message written using alphabet macaroni. :DDDDD and nad and ammar called me 'pak sanggup' for that. hah! whatever mann!
after what happened last night, i didnt call or text baby boo the whole day today, when either one of us are supposed to call the other before he goes to work or before i go to school. until he called me at 1plus pm when i was in bio lect. and i was like, 'hah! tau pon kau nak carik aku!'. LOL. then he texted me and asked what time i finish school today, and i replied 3pm. haiyah... thought he wanted to fetch me ke ape. skali... hahah! nvm. tak mengharapkan die amek pon.

BCLS TOMORROW! :DDDDD can't wait!

kay.
here's the pics of the v'day gifts.

the envelope first.

it reads; to you, whom i give my ♥ to.

and that is the outermost piece.

my valentine. ♥.

how the card's supposed to be.

better view.

the message inside.

made of macaroni alphabets.

the keychain.

the keychain which is inter-changeable. one side reads Shahnor and the other reads Yasmeen. both keychains same. (: ♥.

the bracelet; top part; engraved, Shahnor.

the bracelet; bottom part; engraved, Yasmeen.

better view of his name.

better view of my name. ♥.

dear love angels, please help me. i really hope to spend this valentine's day with him. it is our first and please don't make it the last. ♥♥♥♥♥.

fight.

2010-02-09T08:56:00.003+08:00

how should i start? what should i talk about?
hmm...
exams round the corner. this means that holidays are also round the corner. after which is attachments. then new semester = year 2! :D
i'd better start mugging if i want to do well. *wish to get into the director's list.*
relationship with Shahnor Abbas hasn't been going well these past few days. since Thursday to be exact. and things got worse since Sunday! the anger turned from a spark to a live fire! super duper mad at him! grrr! and tomorrow's our third monthasary. (i haven't start on the card yet. has always been concentrating on v'day's card. and what more the fight is a turn off for me to make the card.)
mum and dad's 20th wedding anniversary is coming. don't know how to celebrate. we'll probably go out for dinner together and i'll just make a card for them.
SCHOOL STARTS AT 1pm TODAY! and end at 3PM! OMG! that is so effing eff! urgh!

thanks dee, far, kakak eiyra and fir.

2010-02-01T00:44:00.003+08:00

dee and far had the same apparent reaction after hearing the story.
kakak eiyra said, don't be too loyal lah. you're still young. enjoy first. dont get too serious with one guy only. then i was like, how siah?! wait i wont get married like that. because ppl will think oh the type of girl i am. she said to only be serious if that guy, in future, will want you to become his wife. must tell him that before hand. but i guess now its too late. i was like, KAKAK! why didn't you tell me about this earlier on before i really get serious with my feeling and relationship with shahnor?!?!?!
seriously! WHY?!?!
and this was what fir said. :)
John 'Soap' MacTavish: "These muppets don't even know we're here." says:
"he nvr mataer with him before." tats gay
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
shut up lah!
typo knn....!!!!
John 'Soap' MacTavish: "These muppets don't even know we're here." says:
here's the solution
1
ignore that bitch
2
trust ur instincts
simple as that
if ur instincts tell u to stay away from shah, do it
if ur instincts says otherwise, trust it and stay with him
situations like these, u have to rely on urself
dont be too quick to judge because of hearsay
ask urself, deep down inside
u will get an answer
u may not like it, but if its for the better, follow it
*some distracting topics*
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
ahahaha1
tak tau uhh..
fir, i know you're trying to get me to not think about that fucking girl. even if you're actually not, i still take it that way. :D but my brain blank uhh.
ive got sick and tired of being in a relationship and breaking up and the same thing over and over again!
sedih tau hidop mcm gini.
sorry uhh i had to pour it out to you...
John 'Soap' MacTavish: "These muppets don't even know we're here." says:
life's like tat
have u ever found the best shoes u've ever bought?
have u ever found the best bag u've ever bought
life is about trial and error
u win some, u lose some
yes it makes u sad, but it makes u stronger, knowing that u wouldnt repeat the same mistakes in the next relationship, thus making the next one a higher probability of it being "the one"
nothing's ever the best
but when u do find that someone who makes almost everything seem like they were the best, then consider him to be "the one"
no one said life was gonna be a stroll in a park
neither did anyone said ur gonna fail all the way in life
life isnt abt always falling down... its abt picking urself up, and not repeating the same mistakes, thus making it less likely to fall down again, if not less painful

thanks all for your support. seriously, this news haven't reach the ears of rinny, nadirah, ammar, AIEEN, KECHYQ and kak athiyah and all. i wonder how horrible things will turn out when they get to know. haiss..
can i love you all instead?! PLEASE!

F*** OFF bitch.

2010-01-31T22:26:00.000+08:00

another post in just a few minutes.
hot hot story!
look at what this fucking girl by the name of sher hussy talked to me on msn about!
:@
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
hah1
heyy there!
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
heyyh
u appear offline?'
ni yasmeen ehhh
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
ohh.
really?€
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
ehh no
u not in my list
waity]
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
huh?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
kk
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
and why is that so?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
ntah
sumwan delete it maybe
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
hahaha!
someone ehh
LOL.
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
nthh
hmm
wassup?
anything?
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
lol.
i was wondering, where i know you...
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
haha
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
lol.
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hmm
i also dun know u
hmm
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
WTH?!
hahaha1
i rmbred you asking me if i am a student nurse or smthg like that..?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
ohok
haha
me ite simei
ehh
ask u sumthing
u still with shanor?
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! said (9:57 PM):
eh, why you offline?
how you know him?!
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hmm
online ahh
hmm
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
hahahaha1
k
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hmm
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
wait, abt shahnor.
how you know him?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
u still with thim?
u everyday mit him>?
hmm
i know him
too well
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
how?1
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
nvm
he hates me
i guess now
hmm
ntah lah ehh
hmm
im sure u gonna ask him
n this gonna b complicated

★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* just sent you a nudge.

YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
sabarlah
what is this all about ni?
im still with him.
but nvr meet him everyday.
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hmm
okayy
msg him everyday?
i mean he msg u everyday?
without fail?
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
and how do you know him? and what makes you say that you know him well.
?
why are asking me all this?1
who are you?!?!
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
ehh gal
tkmu wori
i tkde paper ngna dia
pls
tkmu marah2
hmm
i know him
years already
been with him too
hmm
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
ok...
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hmm
im his x
yeahh
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
....
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
wats with ...
?
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
tell me kmore...\
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
im not trying to pecahkan ur realtionship ehh
hmm
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
when siah you with him?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hmmm
2009 pon ade
2008 pon ader.
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
hahahahaha1
then why break up?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hmm
kite tkleh together uhh
hmm
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
-.-
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
his x is my bestfren
his x tnang is my neighbour/ sec school junior's sister.
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
mampos1
sume realted.
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
his x lagik satu my schoolmate
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
*related
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
yeahh
so he cant run
n he had enough i think
he ntah ehh
i tk pernah trust
haa
nvm
u n him in good terms then okayy
then he patch-ed up with me
he still contact his x tnang
i geram sal
i know cos i bwak alek his sim kad n hp
he use my hp
behh nth lahh gal
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
lek lek..
satu satu..
hmm..
ok..
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
ahakz
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
you and him tahun 2009 which month?

You have just sent a nudge.

★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hmm
jap2
oct
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
till?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
sept uhh i think iptch ngan dia
till nov
hmm
wait
i carik hp i
ade msg2 dia
hp lagik satu
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
be quick.
i cant stay long.
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
why ehh
i tk tahu ana hp tu
nvm uh kalau u nak go
i remember nov
u with him biler?
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
after you i guess.
hah1
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hmm
bulan?
y ai know after me
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
november
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hmm
okayy
so fast.hahaha
he's like tat lah
tak terkejot
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
bgs..
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
his family know him well
hahaha
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
what do you mean?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
nahh
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
??
what do you mean by that?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
tkde paper
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
tell me...
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
nothing lah dear
u his gf u shuld know him well
hmm
i tknak b the one to api2 kan apaper
hmm
u know his frens too ehh?
family?pernah mit?
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
yup.
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
nadiah?fazly ehh
hmm
ohkayy
dah mit parents dia?
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
nadiah sape sehh?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
go ask his mum how many girls he dah pernah bawak balik??
fazly tunang
hmm
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
hidayah lahh
fadzlt, bohari, nazaruddin, baby...
bnyk uhh..
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
oh ya.
ohhk
oklah tuu
hmm
family dia dah mit lum
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
dah jgk..
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hahaha
okayy
common.
nvm
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
lol.
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
all the best ngan dia.
he's nice.
hahaha
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
you met his parents before also?
OMG!
you're sounding like you're sacarstic
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
not sacarstic
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
then?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
nahh
nvm
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
?
i ask you, you met his parents before?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
semua pernah lahh
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
hhmmm..
what do you mean by sume pernah?
main pon ok go jgk?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
ok go jgak uh
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
wahh..
baik perr..?
tunang die nye name ape uh?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
asl ehh
katkan dia tk blang kau
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
nak tau lahh.. abey?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
mira
tahu tk asal dai break?
hahah
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
tak
blng uhhh.
lagi tak tau./.?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
tkpe lah
nanty makin benci shahnor ngan aku
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
ape yg tkpelah?
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
hahaha
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
blng je lahh.
aku tk blng die
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
tknak uh
kau nak kau tanya dia
aku tknak
pompan ckap je tk blang
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
kau pon pmpn jgk...
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
yeah aku pompan
aku tahu lahh
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
tkpelah.
★:][] r a h h d a r l i n g g[][: ★ -NUS malay guys rawks! *i missed being in love* says:
sori eh dear
bukan ape
i tknak kena play our uh
dah puas
YASMEEN. ;i'm shah's! says:
aku rase, aku tkleh percaye uhh ckp kau. dah ade org ckp ngn aku psl prangai kau yg sebenar. jadi aku baik tak termkn kata kata kau. kau ex die ehh? mcm tk percaye uhh. pmpn simpanan pn aku tk percaye.
tkcr sua ehh
sharifah_nur_shahirah@hotmail.com said (10:34 PM):
yeahh biar lah ape org ckap ehh
haha
aku tk kesah pon
hmm.
biar tk percaya
dah kena,aru nak caye
haha
tc
bye

eh pmpn, kau takyah nak brainwash aku lahh ehh. kau berambos pon baik!

Lady Chillax.

2010-01-31T21:15:00.003+08:00

OMG!
after almost a month of not updating my blog, Syahrin a.k.a Mr Stickman suddenly moved me to do so. he called me Lady Chillax. LOL with me ppl! i think that is super cute. he came up with that name because to him i seemed laid back. hahahaha! is it true? hmm..
okay.
so, a lot of things happened in the past one month. fight with Shahnor Abbas goes without saying. seriously, i feel like a dumbass that friday night. i put a test on baby boo. i asked my friend to text him, wanting to get to know him. and he finally knew it was all part of my plan. and i was so... OMG! HOW ON EARTH DID HE KNOW?!?!URGH!
then i got fucked by him that night. not literally.
SUMPAH, the motive was to test him. i didn't even have the feeling of mistrust in him. its just that after Farhanah Sulaiman talked to me on fb, i became more and more afraid of losing him. hence, i became more and more precautious.
now, after that friday night, i finally explained to baby boo about this fear im having. i literally told him everything. and this is what he said to me.
you just cant overcome your feelings!
i find it true. i know.
nvm, its past.
got to do socio.
am sooooooooo looking forward to 1st march 2010.
KARAOKE WITH MY PEEPS @ KSUITES!
<3<3<3<3<3

focus points for now: finish socio, concentrate on bio, psycho, socio and child bearing, HEALTH, and of course SHAHNOR ABBAS!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2010-01-01T00:05:00.004+08:00

finally, something to blog about. haven't been doing this for quite sometime. just because i didn't know what to blog about.
i just hang up the phone with baby boo. he's at sentosa with his friends, counting down to 2010. if not for him, and maybe taufiq, i'd probably be at marina bay float. celebrating myself. well, i don't really blame taufiq whom didn't submit our names on time. well, i backed out in the first place. but its more to baby boo instead. i decided to be a homie on new year's eve because whats the point of celebrating when i can't do it with him? ponder on that. seriously, that was the initial reason on why i didn't want to go. i made that decision as soon as i heard that we got tickets to it. and now he's there, without me. its not that im afrid he'll go woo other girls. its just that i want to be with him on a very special day, to celebrate the happy times with him and hopes he does so too. but i guess he doesn't feel that way. though he might not really be party-ing. URGH! ohh-nevermind. i could only celebrate with him on the phone. and listen to the fireworks going pop-pop-pop.

thanks for being the first official person to make me cry on new year.
I thought of you within the minute, hoping to be wherever you are.

goodbye 2009; hello 2010.

p.s, tell me if i'm being selfish? I hope you remembered me because I’ve bothered to remember you.

?

2009-12-29T13:55:00.004+08:00

should i go "it's only tuesday... :(" or "OMG! IT'S TUESDAY ALREADY!"
two different expressions for two different reasons. the first one exist because i can't wait for it to be the weekends, then a new week, then i can meet baby boo. i'll be stuck here for all i know! URGH! being grounded sucks!
the second expressions exist CAUSE I HAVEN'T START A SINGLE THING ON MY 1500 WORD ESSAY! F***! I KNOW. i just don't know how to start until last night, kak athiyah came and gave me some ideas. thank you! <3 her many many! :DD i'll try my very best to coax myself into finishing doing the thing before saturday comes! seriously. i've got no time left. i've made up my mind that i want to be a homie this countdown. of course i feel guilty for not being able to celebrate it with baby boo. a new year resolution will be to spend more time with him. will try my very bestest best!

been having late nights these few nights. and am feeling very tired now. cant go to sleep now cause i just had my lunch. prangai tkmoh gemuk ehh ckp dgn dier! xP

*FUCK YOU LAH WAHID! GET OUT OF MY MIND YOU CB! *eh, slh. kau buto!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2009-12-26T14:31:00.002+08:00

to syahrin and cousin muhammad, happy birthday to you two! may you both be blessed with the best of health, wealth and iman. AMIN!

well, as for today, had a late breakfast at 1.30pm. then showered and supposed to be getting ready now. but i took the time to update bloggie first. im still like yesterday. keeping things to myself. i just don't know who i can share it with. i need to talk to someone who understands. someone close to my heart. and someone who is willing to lend a LISTENING ear to me. not a hearing one, but a listening one! it makes a huge difference, mind you. i starting to rebel to everything. im startng to throw tantrums. just be prepared for the worst. and please, don't mind me. :\

going out with my family. to i don't know whose wedding. swear i have no mood at all. fuck siah! swear i just don't feel like i need them! can i don't want them? URGH! life wouldn't be the way it is if not for them. seriously. the way people look at me, the way people trust me and the way people enjoymy company will totally be different.

no use talk about them.

merry christmas.

2009-12-25T16:02:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMASS people!
don't really have the mood to blog right now.
i think its better off kept to myself.
even if it means to be depressed.

p.s, baby boo, i love you.

T-T-T-TIRED!!!

2009-12-15T11:33:00.004+08:00

got back arnd 12+midnight last night. damn tired lah kan.

I PASSED MY LAB SKILLS TEST! :DDDDDDDD

after school ytd, naddy's sis and mum fetched. went to GIANT GIANT at tampines. felt like i was at malaysia. hehh. seriously, it was my first time there! -.- after which, ate prata telur with kari ikan. but the kari tasted sweet. no kick. off to naddy's place. rest for a while and out again to queenstown this time. trained there. i slept in the train. still felt tired when we reached there. :( then had to bus to the place. but we went on the wrong side. so had to cross over. i wasn't in much of the mood then. when we reached the place, we hurried coz the place like close at 6pm. and it was already 6then. lucky, the shop haven't close. if not... ok. then bussed down to paya lebar. baby said he'd reach office by 7. i reached there around 730. but he still havent reach. :( i wasted time and reached the bustop at around 750. thinking i was the late one. skali sit there for half an hour, he still nvr call. so i took the initiative to do so. he said, they were still on their way. :@ finally they reached around 855. thanks ehh. make me wait there for an hour plus. dah gitu tkpe. he called and asked me to call dayah, afad's fiance. he asked me to wait for her, then go their office. -.- i was already damn tired. and at the point i called dayah, she baru nak kluar rumah. hmm.. she reached at around 930. board the van while waiting for them to settle everything and off to mustafa centre! i wanted to eat thosai. but the man said, there's no thosai. :( after makan, we 'toured' the mustafa centre. round and round and round the car care area. hmm.. and it was already late for me. but nvm. i want to show my disinterest in the home. so that i can quickly get out of the place. i asked baby when is the day we can stay together, under one roof. and i knew the answers to it. GET OUT FROM THERE FIRST, THEN TALK! tu pon tak pandai pandai ke? haiyahh... got back and hit the bed straight away! damn! had to wake up early still. had school. but i don't have the mood to go. -.- met baby, took hp, and then thought of meeting naddy. end up, im here at the bedok library.

okay. nak buat health assasment skg!
BYE!

my sunday.

2009-12-13T22:19:00.002+08:00

officially opened up my eyes to sunday at 1115am. had late night last night. after talking to baby booat arnd midnight, dee and i watched KAMI. stopped at around 1.30am. couldn't open up my eyes any longer. slept well until the oint where pijats attacked! GRRR!:@ woke up, showered and then facebooked until lunch, which is around 12noon. ate the food. as always, not filling. and off to collect my pocket money for the week. pity kakak eiyra. then off to et ready for wedding. kak julie and abg usop's wedding. tried to get hold of baby boo before going, but he didn't answer. too sick i guess. the wedding was great uhh. but no sight of a single fan there! because all of it turned into berkats. LOL. kompang, dikir, then photography sessions. and back. SWINED on farah's bed as soon as we touched down. tired. awaken when it was time for dinner. around 1830hrs. and slacked around till now. and up to this very moment, baby boo still havent answered my call. BLEARGH! gett well soon b!

randomly, i like the song on ijan's blog. -.-
she must be thinking that im a freak! lol. stalk her. well, i was just bloghopping.

TOMORROW'S LAB SKILLS ASSESMENT FOR ME! FUCK! I HAVEN'T REVISED ANYTHING YET!
ahh, just wish me luck ahh eh?

BYE!

this is how you spell boring.

2009-12-12T14:41:00.002+08:00

as ALWAYS, days here are BORING! do i have to swear upon that fact? i woke up at 1130am today. showered, got 'ready', and lunch. had rice, kuah lontong and sambal belacan. *the indon version* not so filling. then had ice-cream. ohh guess what?! we can't have cold drinks here. pathetically due to a number of residents falling sick. PATHETIC! urgh!!! I WANT TO GO OUT!!! nak jumpa baby boo. didn't get to meet him yesterday. and now, he's sick. shucks! im feeling guilty enough for not being able to spend the weekend with him. and what now? he's sick and i can't be there with him also? FUCKED UP SIAH!!! what a rotten luck! ohh god! quickly get me out from here lah! PLEASE!!! ;( im tortured enough. not physically difinitely, but emotionally. all these happen for a reason, i know. but still, put a stop to it!

dahlah.
get well soon bby.
<3

missing you.

2009-12-11T20:59:00.002+08:00

ytd was my 1st month with baby boo. definitely loving it lah kan? get to spend time with him. fecthed me from dayah's block and off we went to changi. packed nasi lemak and we 'picnic-ed' by the beach and had our very late dinner. :D the breeze; oh-so soothing. swear to god, i didn't want that moment to end. especially the part where he held me in his arms. be it on the mat or in the van. at that moment in time, the cold breeze didn't feel cold at all. i wish that it would just stay like that forever. but what was i thinking mayn? lol. i had to get home by then. tu pon he sent me late! hah! don't blame anyone but myself. so that was how i spent my first monthasary. though it was not just the two of us, but it was quite romantic and fun. heeh. ok dah. then back to the house of hell. i wasn't feeling good about it, tell you first! and he knew it. i didn't have to tell him. HE COULD READ ME!! OMG! is this freaky or what?! hah! well, i don't think so. okok. and so, today, somebody was so, i don't know how to describe. nak kate jealous tu tak lah kan. nak kate... nak kate... ah! tak tau lah ape nak kate. soon as i told him im on my way to tamp to meet ammar instead of the usual meet up with nad, his change of mood came in. hais... and i tried my very best to pujok him. haiyoh... die belum kenal ammar lagi kot? hah! then terbawak-bawak sampai ke ptg plak tuu. lol. hais... but finally, by the set of the sun, i managed to pujok him. hehh. somehow lah kn. kate wifey die pe?! :X hmmm... im so freaking exhausted lah. my sleep here were sleepless. if only you could understand. hah!

dah lah. bed is calling out to me.
*YASMEEN.....YASMEEN....~~~!
CRAP!

p.s. ILOVESHAHNORBINABBAS!

freezing in bedok library!

2009-12-10T19:22:00.002+08:00

okay. so the plan of eating roti prata was not fulfilled. we did go to eunos, but the kedai ali baba roti prata not ready yet. :( i was so down! swear to god! anyways, had mee hoon goreng. naddy's mum's treat. and then off to parkway parade to fetch arfan, naddy's cousin. then sent ammar off and followed by me. went up to home, with no key, and put the mangoes outside the house. gosh!!!! swear im going to miss going home!!!!! I WANT TO GO HOME WITH NO NEED TO RETURN TO ANYWHERE LIKE JCH! urgh! do you people just understand how i feel? well, i don't think so. because you are not me. and you have never been me. and you never will be me. and you won't understand how i feel. SWEAR THAT TO GOD!
currently at bedok library, killing time while waiting for baby boo to call. i haven't talk to him since like ytd 2300hrs, where he sent me home.
*he called as i was typing the above staement!* xP
okok!
die dah call! heeh. he'll be fetching me later. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD see that lengthy smile on my face? hah! hais... sumpah i miss you siollll!!! heeh. as said in my personal message on MSN. wear i never get sick and tired of meeting you everyday! getting fatter tu ade arh! :p everyday i meet him will be = to everyday of having late night dinner. hah! and guess what?!?! while we, baby, his workmates, dayah and myself, were having dinner at mak's place last night, i saw abg sop lah sioll! sumpah! he and kak nana and syuhada! freak! that was not supposed to happen! and before that i already had a feeling that its not good. TOLD YA B! hah!
okay. and then off to sned dayah home and then my turn. he sent me to my doorstep! hah! naseb pintu tutup. kalau tk, mmg carik nahas! hmpf! ni nari jmpe lagik, cnfm pergi mkn lagik! i'll see what i can do to make myself hungry. xP something like pooping? :X

apape, i know, I WANT TO EAT PRATA TELUR WITH FISH KARI! nak jgk nak jgk nak jgk!!!! HMPH!

1st month.

2009-12-10T13:53:00.003+08:00

today marks the first month of me being with baby boo. sumpah im feeling very delighted. so far, we've been through fights and misunderstandings. but we went it through well and fine. we overcome it well. yesterday was the first month i get to know him. yet it feels like i've known him for years. long-term in short lah kn. seriously, i've never been in a relationship with someone whom i barely know for a week or even a day. hah! no doubt bout that, i'm not regretting any decisions i made for us. sumpah b, i love you! heeh.

dah lah. nak mkn roti prata kat eunos dgn nad dgn ammar dgn kak nadya.
*slurps*

P.S. ILOVEYOU.

LAZY.

2009-12-06T14:05:00.003+08:00

what a lazy weekend i'm having!
seriously LAZY!
here at nad's house, watching shrek the third.
still don'tknow whether to go home and get ready for baby's friend's engagement ceremony or just go from here.
i guess, i'll go from home since i asked daddy for his permission.
but im not sure whether its granted or not.
anyways, i hope it is.
or else, im gonna be so dissapointed for not being able to accompany baby.
hmmm...

a week.

2009-12-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

i haven't been doing this for long. don't know how long more. heh. but im sure it won't be that long though. see, im doing it now! xP
okok. hari raya haji weekend was fine. baby boo sent me home on the eve of raya. sampai lip. hah! bey die balek naek cab. and it costed him 27 buck! fuck kn?! kene midnight charge! okok. then the saturday tu kene dtg balek. coz ade korban. it was mummy's birthday seh! GRRR!!!!! :@ and the thing ended only at 9.30pm. wtf?! tell me, wtf?!! but at night, mummy, daddy, fadhli and abang fetched me from the bustop and off we went to simpang bedok for supper. i had spaghetti sausage carbonara, mummy had some sausage food which apparently i forgot, abang had steak, fadhli had fish and chips * MACAM PAHAM! * hah! and daddy had kacang pool je. then for the surprise part, abang bought mummy a from east point. cepat cepat pergi! mummy thought he went to the loo. hah! pergi loo dtg balek bwk cake ehh?!?! and fadhli was sweet, he asked daddy to buy fererro rocher and gave to mummy saying that he bought it. xP then balek, mummy and daddy and fadhli mkn cake. still got room for more food! hah! as soon as i changed, i catched the earliest train to lala land. MEKK!!! hahaha! and wake up the next morning, helping mummy prepare for swimming. we went to WILD WILD WET! gerek gilerr! it has been ages lah since i went there with my family! from 2pm to 730pm. hows that? ahah! then went home to put my stuff and went to meet baby boo at his place. he tire me out. TOTALLY! made me walk about here and there! then home and lala land. weekdays were usual. school and stuff. but this is an extra point! whereby baby boo made me extremely angry! grr!!! don't wish to talk about it lah! hmpf! ok. and today was supposed to meet him again. prolly go out for dinner. but till this very moment, he still havent finish work! hmmm... tmrw then. im supposed to be doing my part of the psycho project, but imblogging away. ok. no more side tracks ehh?!?!
BYE!!

p.s., night angels, please please guard my baby boo with your lives! SAYANG DIE TAWU!

okay.

2009-11-23T00:30:00.002+08:00

okay. korg tkleh bace.
this was what he said.

Genji Ryuu Peter : LOL! Missing Out?! Definitely not...there is nothing between the both us! Like i said Yas....Im sweet to ladies! Well to those ladies who are willing to welcome my passionate love towards them!and Besides,like Zakiah said "even if there's smthg on btwn us, you wont know ! But unlike u miss Yasmeen....ur different from ladies...u are a freak of ... Read Morenature! U spoil the the image of yourself....look at your profile pic for instance! Whats up with that gore fingers! Its so uncool for a lady! I mean if u ... Read Morewere to post it on your profile and not set it as your profile pic it would b fine.....but to put it as your PP, its very disturbing...and a lady is not suppose to have a disturbing kinda look!
Wahahaha....BTW pushing my buttons is also the same as crossing my lines! Get it now arse face!

Muahahahahah! Ouh Anyway being able able to smell something fishy is good! makes u an alert kind of person! Keep it up! And no offense about this post aite Yas! Just pulling your leg!

and then i replied,

Yasmeen Zulkiffli : kat grandlink ade perr. room for 8 pon ade. kat kampong ubi cc pon ade. kau je yg tak tau. skg ni kau ade hal pe dgn aku peter? nak ckp aku ni lah... tu lah... who the hell are you to say this about me siah?!?! shut you fucking filthy mouth up before i do it for you!!!! and to the rest, dont try to ask me to chill. i won't compromise with this kind of people. friends indeed. hah! BULLSHIT LAH!!! puik kat muka kau pon cantik!!! KNN!!!

and he replied,

Genji Ryuu Peter : WAhahahahahahaahahahaha!
Unbelievable.....finally after lots of years,we are starting a real fight....now this is something new....Yas i do not mean to be rude or anything but if u want to turn this into a real crisis between the both of us,well that will just makes me sad as we were always like this since Primary School....the fact that u do not even know ur friend! Now that really makes me very sad.....Oh Yea judging by ur attitude where u can't compromise really shows how true is ur friendship...btw my mouth has been like this since i was young....that is why i keep repeating the two words "No Offense" which also shows that im joking....Im really surprise that u cant accept that....come on girl! Look back and reflect on the past...ur smart so u should figure out the facts of my comment!
Well,what can i say....people do change after all...so i do not blame u!

Well the point is this is me...accept if u want to,deny if u don't want to!... Read More... Read More

Ouh yes! Pardon me...FYI, we are all growing older and we all should accept good or bad facts especially its a fact that we are friends!
Even though i might be a friend who uses jokes on u that could hurt,at the end of the day,when ur in need of help i will definitely be there...i am not afraid to hurt ur feelings,its much better than seeing someone else hurting ur feelings...haha..that's so not right...well whatever..hehe!
Yes this is how i react with my friends or even best friends!
I will always care or show my appreciation towards my friends! Yea u could say so "Friends Indeed!"

So Yasmeen,like i said, Accept Or Deny?! Its your call!

And this goes out to not only Yasmeen but also TO ALL OF U MY FRIENDS!

THIS IS ME!!!!

and i replied again,

Yasmeen Zulkiffli : eh, cut the crap lah peter! i NEVER had friends like this before!and i never will want to have friends like this. ni mcm pey kawan boleh campak ke laut lahh! enemy ke tak, tu nnty boleh citer uhh. ni skrg aku tak puas dgn ape kau ckp dgn aku. wtf?! org kalau tak respect aku, buat pe aku nk respect drg ehh?! patut kene ludah kat muka. baru sedar ... Read Moresikit! you got your different beliefs and likings, and i do too! so just respect uhh. kau tkyah ckp aku gitu perr. aku pon ade aku pey maruah. kau phm tak?! kalau ni benda tak berlaku skg, aku tak rase kau akan tau and belajar. sampai bile bile pon kau nye prangai ttp mcm gini jgk. aku tak kenal kau ke kau yang tak cukup kenal aku lagi ni?! get your facts right before blurting it out ah ehh?! and and, kalau nak joke tu, bertempat ahh. tak sume jokes kau org boleh angkat lahh. kalau tak tau org boleh angkat ke tak, takyah bbl ah.

btw, i rmbred that i already state my point to my other friends, don't ask me to chill. but it seems that my simple words are so difficult to be understood. i don't need people to ask me to chill. i know how to do it. and i know when to do it. so yeah.

count me out. im not going to come. *don't try to make me come. don't push your luck too far ppl.

this is my display pic, FYI!

PEOPLE, TELL ME WHO THE FUCK IS HE TO SAY THIS TO ME?!

fucking not my day!

2009-11-22T23:48:00.006+08:00

i haven't been getting a great day today. so, pls don't try to push your luck ppl. i mean it ehh. firstly was hubby. he changed. oris it just me and my PMS?! well, he was super duper irritating that i just hung up on him and switched off my hp. ok. then there's this thing between me and my primary school "best friend". look at what he said in here. wtf?!

and this is what i replied. V

and he have the cheek to reply again! wtf?! V

and this, again, is what i replied. V

sumpah aku tkde mood! ni sume gare gare org yg bernama "kawan"!!!

hangover.

2009-11-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

busy weekend.
still feeling hanged over from last night.
*burrppp~!!*
toodles.

3rd post of the day!!!

2009-11-19T22:23:00.002+08:00

after school just now, went to orchard with darling ayda bella ronaldo. went to orchard central to get my new nike sweater!!! no pics of it. YET! then off to centrepoint's macs to "study". but you know me. if got lappy, where got study? hah! after lappy died, suffri came and we went to go eat prata together. after food was smoking time. and off we went to urbanwrites. the things there were so attractive lah! and i suddenly wanted to get hubby something. initially thought of getting him something from sportslink. but then i got him a card from urbanwrites instead. i decided to write something for him. then we went to ayda's crib. to lepak while waiting for hubby to finish work. so while at ayda's place, i wrote him the card. here's some pictures of it.

the front of the envelope. ((:

the side of it.

the back of it. heeh.
didn't get to take the inside of the card. ;(
probably will do when he opens it up. :DDDDD
hhmmm... didn't get to meet him tonight. i swear i hope i can meet him tomorrow!!! rindu dier gilerr babi larrhhh!!! kau paham tak perasaan aku?!?!
hah! okay.
goodnight!

HOTDOG!

2009-11-19T14:13:00.002+08:00

NADIA CHAN TREATED ME TO SAUSAGES TODAY!!!! WOOOOOOHOOOO~~~!!!!
*SLURPS*

and and this cat is my second sayang!
((:

PRIMATES.

2009-11-19T11:54:00.005+08:00

havent been blogging for the past two days. i was very busy. tuesday reached home at 11plus. then too tired to even on lappy. i only on it to charge my mp3. heeh. then off to lala-land. wanted to meet hubby on tuesday, but he like in a state of hesitation. so nvm lah. go study with nad and syahrin instead. woke up to a boring wed morning. the weather was so nice to sleep in. but had to go school! like what i told bulu, school is making me lose sleep. urgh!!! school ended at 11 because rini, nad and myself caboted psycho lecture. heeh. then we went to the lib for our respective group meetings. then i went off. while nad and rini stayed to study bio. i went to yck mrt with liyana, juliana and their gf. met gf een in the train and went back together.didnt want to meet hubby. my sandals broke off! grrr!!! sape kn nk gi jmpe matair dgn sandal pecah?!?! hahaha! so i told him i going back. and he asked, " betol tnk meet?" and i replied. yes hubby. tmrw, which is today, we can spend more time together. heeh. so, i'll probably be meeting him today. PROBABLY! miss him damn much siah!!!! nak jmpe jgk! and so, school has already ended for me. but im still in school because mdm foo wants to meet us. for the ICA. haiyah... its okay lah. im waiting for darling ayda bella ronaldo anyways.

P.S. I MISS MY PRIMATES!!!!!!!!!! aki, idah, fiq and dannn!!!
meet up soon yeah peeps?!?!

toodles!

LOVE!

2009-11-16T22:55:00.005+08:00

THAT'S HIM! yes! my hubby!
:DDDD
heeh.

woke up at 0530hrs this morning. ironed dress and showered. out off this place by 0630hrs. met birthday girl nadirah at bedok mrt station at 0700hrs. off to national dental centre for nadirah's dental appointment! SHE TOOK OFF HER BRACES READY!!!! hah! COOL SHIT!!! serious. okok. after which we went to macs at school for breakfast. treated her to hotcakes with sausage meal. heeh. and big breakfast for myself. then we went to lab. saw feeq and told him it was nad's birthday today. yadayada. we went in for lab and poof~!! class was over! heh. we practiced the surgical technique. surgical handwash; donning of sterile gloves and preparing the sterile set. group meeting for half an hour. still early. hubby wanted to fetch me from school. but he haven't even got out from house that time. GRRR!!! :@ tell you how mad i was. summore ask me to meet him at yishun instead. then nvm. otw to yishun, inside the train at khatib, he told me to meet him at admiralty. e!!! geram nye! ni bukan dia amek saya tau!!! ni saya yang amek dia!!! abey ckp kalau marah tkyah jmpe. sape yg nk gi tk jmpe psl marah kn?! jadik jumpe je lahh. seriously, its not even a week since we got together, and i've already teared for him! hais... i was so worried and my mind filled up with millions of nonsensical stuffs. thinking that he wanted to leave me just like that. hais... i sat alone at the bustop, waiting for him for almost an hour and crying while listening to mp3. then he called and asked to meet him at 7eleven. and so i did. then he bising. because my baju was too revealing. no doubt bout that. i had eyes starring at me a lot of times today. esp that guy in the school lib!!!! :@ and we trained down to Paya Lebar. he had meeting. so i sent him there then i went off to lavender to meet gf een. she was late for work. she's the usual person i meet while waiting for hubby. just to kill time and not do anything worthless. hah! then went to iluma to get my tube. very uncomfortable lah wear shawl over. heeh. then after that lepaked outside een's workplace until hubby called to say he finished meeting. so we met at bugis for dinner. was super duper hungry. :((( we had long john's. heeh. both of us shared one golden deal one. cute kn kn kn?! xP despite the bad day he caused me to have earlier this afternoon, i still loved being with him. it just makes me feel so in place and so me. :DDDDD after dinner, we walked around. then he sent me off to the bustop. and now, here i am, at home, sitting, blogging and thinking of him without fail.

p.s. ILOVEYOU,HUBBY!

missing you.

2009-11-15T20:08:00.002+08:00

HUBBY!!!!!! MISS YOU LAH SIOLLLLLLSSSSSS!!!! SWEAR I CAN'T WAIT FOR TMRW TO COME!!!!!!!!!!!! THEN CAN MEET YOU AND HUG YOU AND KISS YOU AND... hahaha! okay. thats enough. :X now, thats how much i miss you, you gundu!!!!! heeh. i wish i can spend every minute of your life with you. and every minute of my life too. hmm... dah lah.. asyik asyik blog pasal die... asyik asyik blog pasal die... heeh.

the kids of jamiyah early childhood centres were awesomely cute and adorable! they acted out willy wonka and the chocolate factory.

dah lah. bsk, nadirah nye birthday! tapi present pon belom ade. pagi gi teman die gi dental die. die nak bukak gigi die. BETOL!!! hahaha! tklah. bukak braces. pastu kite nak gi skula together. pastu saya nak gi jumpa baby boy saya! die nak amek saya kat sekolah! tak sabar lah sangat! sebab saya dah rindu dgn dia!!!! heeh.

K BYE!

sunday.

2009-11-15T13:02:00.002+08:00

told me to call you before going to sleep, i did. but u didn't answer my calls. called you as soon as i woke up in the morning, still no answers. where did you go last night? haiyah.... worried sick about you, you know?!?!?! lucky u answered on my last trial to call you. SLEEP only!!! grrr!!! :@ was pissed off for that moment.

dearest nadirah a. nasir, it has always been my pleasure to see you happy. thats what friends are for after all right?! heeh. anyways, have a good day ahead.

off to museum later on for some graduation tingy. swear i don't feel like going. seriously, i don't have the mood!

when you're far away.

2009-11-14T15:56:00.004+08:00

SHAH!!! i miss you so much lah! when i tell this to my friends, they tell me this; "korg baru semlm jumpe!". no doubt bout that though. kalau boleh hari hari nak jumpe! lupe lah nak masok kan gmbr dlm lappy. kalau tak dah leh upload. :(( like what i told you last night, never in my 17 years of life, my boify bring me out with his friends. this is the first. sweet lah you! sorry i couldn't spend your off day with you. and you know the reasons to it. hmm.. i wonder if you're thinking bout me as much as i am....

IMISSYOU!
having bbq here later this evening. urgh! i want him to be here! spending every precious minute with him. ups and downs we go through together. i WANT to be here for you. i hope you can wait till the time comes. when i get out of this place....!! i can't wait to bring you to meet my parents. so much to do!!!!!! :X
okok. don't put too high hopes, yasmeen.

new line.

2009-11-11T21:47:00.002+08:00

and so i didn't blog ytd. balek lmbt dokk!! heeh. xP school ended at 6pm ytd. :( and shah said to meet him at paya lebar at 7pm. but he only came at 8.45pm. thanks ehh ckp dgn die. naseb uhh die belikn rokok and makan. school was sucky today. all the lecturer's taught us like asking us to sleep! grrr!!! we went to east coast macs to get our food. double cheeseburger without pickle meal; upsize. shared btween the both of us! fed him while he drive. and he sent me until bawah block. how sweet. no doubt wahid sent me before too. so? thats the past! however, i slept at 1.30am only! and i had to wake up at 5.30am in order not to be late. like YTD! heeh. sorry nad. :X woke up in the morning, irond my dress and off to shower. got ready for school and off i go! went to 7eleven to get dyanah's mashed potato which i intially told her i'll get one for her last night. just to make it up to her. then off to bedok mrt to meet nad. trained down to p.r. then r.p. then y.c.k. we were late then. and rinny had no cash to pay her taxi fare. and the uncle suck! BIG TIME!! lab for two hours then psycho lect for an hour. and thats it for the day. went for group meeting for a while and then lunch at koufu for my favourite steamed chicken rice. then while we were on our way out for a puff, we saw rinny and ammar at the atrium. so we went wandering around. just to kill time while waiting for liyana umar. after that, bussed down to tamp. had a good sleep on the way there. :DDDDDD met naddy's parents and signed up for new line. :DDDDD yes peeps! this means im changing number. so get it from me if you want to. then met baby girl, een. and we lepaked at sunplaza park. while i told her about shah. hah! then off for home! but i forgot to get kfc, so we went to paya leber to get it. and home now! just sent my drug homework t shamu. really sorry for the delay. :X
now, i need to spend more time on BIO and all the other modules!!
toodles.

p.s.: shah cute! tk mcm adk die, pocong. :X

yesterday and today.

2009-11-09T00:19:00.002+08:00

just got back frm the sharifah aini concert at singapore indoor stadium. not as hectic as i expected it to be. we were late for the concert actually. the songs she sang was so unfamiliar to me. anyways... haha! get to see the islah boys. which definitely remind me of wahid! hais... this also atually reminds me that his birthday is not long from now. okay. saw chiko; chirul's big bro and his momma. ive decided to sleep after blogging. since youtube is down for maintainance. :( so icant watch my tngisan bulan madu. ;( NAK JUGAK NAK JUGAK NAK JUGAK!!! :( hmph! if by tomorrow, the thing is still not working, i shall cry! haha! i don't think the management would even care. hah!
anyways S.A., i've read what you posted on your blog months ago. regarding the girl of your dreams. what happens if that girl is already like that when you meet her ehh? mind changing her to become your perfect miss right? because i love to change for someone i love. hahah! and i don't mind at all. :DDDDD
let's predict whats going to happen tomorrow. well, i will be having lab skills tomorrow; so, i'm sure it's going to be hell of a fun thing. and then break for an hou. followed by bio lab for two hours and an hour of child bearing tutorial. end of school. hmmms.. no plans for after school yet tomorrow. probably going to get mommy's present. and my nike slippers. PROBABLY!
dah lah. BYE!

This Is It.

2009-11-07T20:34:00.005+08:00

woke up pretty late today. at 9 i'm still wanting to sleep. but had to drag myself out of bed. didn't want nad to wait. (: showered and got ready for movie date with nad. headed down to her place and i forgot to bring the vouchers. sportslink for me and OG for mummy's birthday present. yeh! get to meet kak nadya! :D nad's mum prepared breakfast for me. roti kari and milo. i bedal the keropok as well. xP lapar dokkk...!! and as i waited for nad, i munched on liqourice and ribena pastilles. left her crib at around 11.30am. with kak nadya. she's going to jb with her boifey. trained down to simei to get nad's hp back from servicing. then down to sportslink to check out the adidas slippers i want! but to no avail, it's not found there. so we headed to pasir ris; white sands mall to look for it too. again, results were disappointing. haiyah... lets just wait for it to be in stores lah kan?! grrr!!!! NAK JUGAK NAK JUGAK NAK JUGAK!!!! I SAW THE GUY IN THE MRT WEARING IT!!! :@ okay. trained down to bugis and then off to film garde at iluma. movie at 2.25pm. visited adidas boutique there! two things i want to get from that shop!!! WALLET&T-SHIRT!!! hmm.. $$$ then out to bugis street to get my cup corn and up to cinema. i smuggled the cup corn in my bag. heeh. setan pey anak! :X suddenly i feel like michael jackson is alive again. maybe its just in me. anyhoos, after that we walked all the way to town. wisma atria; nike id. but andi and kamal weren't in today. so we decided to come back another day. a day when they're in perhaps. (: kamal cute!!! andi LAGI cute!!! this is what happens when i'm single. xP okok. after that wheelock for birkenstock. and trained home. ate and now, blogging. watching TANGISAN BULAN MADU later on. but want to shower first. heeh. Datuk Sharifah Aini's concert tmrw. gonna be one hectic day! hmmm..
nah... some random pics for you people to see.

last monday;02112009.

shop, shop and shop!

the soft toys i got from him. sill bring t to sleep every night.

p.s: your stupidness, or should i say your foolishness is making me dislike you. who cares right?! nobody cared when i liked/loved you. and now nobody will care when im starting to hate you! hah!

BYE!

UPDATE!

2009-11-06T22:18:00.005+08:00

two and a half moths since i last updated my blog ehh?! haha! after my last post was exams. then too stressed studying. after that, attachments ready. too tired to blog. holidays for four weeks, also lazy to update. xP then now school re-opened for three weeks alrd. then i start blogging again. and its the end of third week then i restart ehh?!?! thanks ah ckp dgn die. xP well, A LOT, and i really mean alot!, has happened to me these past two and a half months! after attachments was hari raya. and i broke off with WAHID, my OMEGA boy, on the 4th day. which was rinny's 20th and omega's bday too. what a day?! hmm... lets just not talk about it kay?

MOVE ON! *kumar's slang*
xP
okay. so i remembered how my S.A. came into my dream last sat night. and wahid the day after that. i dreamt that i and my S.A. got into a relationship. hah! I SWEAR I'D WISH! haha! and the day after that was a dream that i patched back with wahid. how could this be? when before going to sleep i stared at my S.A.'s picture. and in that dream, we were an item. and sheila was nowhere to be found. yeah baby!! THE PART THAT I LOVE THE MOST!! freaking bapok! urgh!!!
*sumpah aku geram! mcm nk cekik aje batang leher die tao!!!*
well, two days later was worse. when i found out that my S.A. is attached! ohhmygawd!! sumpah i didn't dream of this coming. urgh!!! im just not meant to be in love at such a young and raw age. thats it mayn! i've made my vow! and also kan, im like not used to it anymore. im now more used to being single. furthermore, my S.A. and his gf got together just two days efore my 1st year anni with wahid which is super duper wasted! if only i had knew that this was coming, i'd have ended our relationship earlier. hais...
nothing can be done now. so yah.

today, tut was first lesson. then followed by break and then bio lect. i was as usual super bored. so i decided to text farhat. and he told me to make full use of lectures. so i tried my best and ended up sleeping half of the lecture. :DDDDD child bearing lecture had a good start. and not like before. video of child birth at home. super cool and fascinating~!! hah! after that, we as a class, went over to shamu's house for dinner. trained down to amk then bussed to blk 518. shamu's mother was like her twin. only older. :X and we definitely had loads and loads of fun. laughing and giggling. elaine's surprise was the best! xP anyhoos, happy 17th elaine!!

dah.
yang sudah tu sudah ehh?!

GEYLANG!

2009-08-27T22:08:00.002+08:00

i seriously think geylang, this applies to the month of ramadan only, is a great place to meet the people you have not been meeting for so long. and and, a place for you to have fun lah kan? heh. ok. so i planned to meet the primates at 5pm at paya lebar mrt. and in the end i was the late one. heh. i reached at 6! ohh god! anyways, we like catch up on each other like for an hour straight! like yeah mayn! mcm like after 4 yrs tk jmpe. oh oh! i was expecting at least a hug ke ape lah from aki. but she came and the first thing she said was, "eh, u never grow uhh?" then i was like... ?? for a moment. heh. I WAS THE SHORTEST IN PRIMARY SCHOOL AND STILL THE SHORTEST NOW! hha. how can i ever grow? xP then we proceeded to our aimless walk. we didn't know of where to break our fast. there is 3 choices. 1. banquet 2. KFC 3. Es teler 77 *an indon rest* so we like ohh-ya-pay-ya-som to see where to eat. and finally we ate at banquet. haha! cool way of deciding ehh? thanks ahh dan! ok. it was like only 6.15pm then. we have like an hour till buka time. then we like sat in the banquet and chatted. i talked to zahidah otp! hahaha! she jealoused. she couldn't make it. so we planned to make another meet up on this coming tuesday. so i'll be seeing them after my attatchment! this time, i'll make sure zahidah is around! (: miss her yaw~! ok. so i and aki had chicken rice. then after our meal, we walked around the bazaar geylang. then like don't know where to go. :/ AND I HAVE TO DECIDE OF WHERE TO GO BECAUSE I WAS LATE!!! thanks ehh? hahaha. then i decided to go back to roslan because zulaikha, aki's elder sister is there. it has been super long time since i last met her. and we hugged and all. then took pics. ask aki, say got no cam. ask dan, say don't need. then finally zulaikha's ex bf took it for us. heh. its like WE are long time nvr meet bestf lah. instead of me and dan and aki. haha! then after that we all headed home. because i couldn't stay out late. so yah. &&i stopped super a lot of times lah. meet people i know lah. like abg fitri, kak jun, sam and ain, nas, aieen&eddy, musa, then the couple i saw at bedok south sec while accompanying naddy for her english orals just now. a lot lah. haha! so now, im back to where i belonged to; HOME. blogging my night away!

p.s: i just can't pt to words how much i miss you!

random.

2009-08-27T11:38:00.002+08:00

ok. i know this is random. and im doing it only because i have nothing else to do while waiting for naddy to finish practice for her orals exam later. one which i have to accompany her to. GOOD LUCK EYH?! ok. anyways, today's last paper was ok. i couldn't make myself believe that i acted like a kid in the exam hall! i was like smiling and laughing all to myself. i was freaking irritated lah with the girl in front of me! *Nis****** heh. i like finished the paper like early. at 0955 hrs. then im only 'allowed' to, by nad, leave after that girl leave. which was like at 1025 hrs gitu. i had to wait a freaking 30 mins for her to leave! F***! hah. so in that 30 mins kn, i decided to colour the sticker label on my table. heh. which then caught the attention of my neighbour. LOL. when that girl left, it was my turn. i had to clear my throat as an indication to naddy that i'm leaving. but i just couldn't do it. i plucked up my courage. but failed. eventhough i know i had to clear my throat. it was itchy at that point of time! GRRRR! then like finally we left. i laughed my ass off as soon as i got out of the exam hall! hahaha! couldn't contain it anymore. then get to see my eye candy. like aww~! haha. awed by my own actions ehh? ape saje lah aku ni. xP so me and naddy waited for ammar and rinny at the swimming pool area there. then off to the library. so here i am in NYP's library blogging away. while rinny is coaching naddy. and ammar is talking to raihan. which in the first place idk what he's doing here. hah! &&i'm so excited about later. i just can;t wait for evening to come! MEETING MY PRIMATES! (: ok. like insya'allah i will update again later at night k? about the outing i had with my primates! <3

toodles!

from me to you;

2009-08-24T00:26:00.004+08:00

dear my S.A.,
i swear i miss you. what i said the other day might have left you in the dark. so here i am trying to enlighten you. the truth is, i was being overcomed by jealousy and envy the moment i saw another girl like mcm calling you baby gitu. :? idk why? like, ever since we talked, i've like nvr stop thinking about you. i saved every ONE of our conversations on msn. and i re-read it everytime i think of you. and everytime i miss you. i told my bestfrinds about you. how sweet you were. *YOU ARE EHH?* anyways, ego captured me and i wasn't willing to talk to you then. only now then i realise how much i missed you. ohh damn! forgive me for doing this. i've never been in this position before. and i don't know what's gotten into me. :'(
good night b. have me in your dreams. (:
SORRY.

love,
yasmeen.

2 Ramadan 1430H.

2009-08-23T17:15:00.001+08:00

5 days of not updating my blog. there is so much to say. so much happened. so i might only say the ones i think are important. like how i stayed up late on the eve of psycho paper just to talk to freddy. :DDDDD and and!! how i spent my friday! it was super cool lah! helping mdm kartini decorate the mess hall. :D it turned out super beautiful lah! heh. praise own work ehh? no lah. but it seriously is beautiful. ok. and ytd was the first day of the fasting month this year. and it was firman's birthday! :D *HAPPY 13TH FIRMAN! young indeed* i managed to fast on the first day. happy enough. today, allah gave me mc. heh. cannot fast. its the time of the month. :DDDD but still, i had no intake. coz i want to lose those fats!!! hah.

to self, GO AND STUDY LA!!! tmrw's FON!!!

yearning for you.

2009-08-18T17:09:00.003+08:00

i woke up this morning to the excitement of eating out with baybe yumie and naughty dolly. i was supposed to meet them at 0930hrs under the block in front of their school. i woke up at 0830. haha! LATE!!! as always, i rushed in the toilet. lucky thing, my toothpaste went where it was supposed to go; on my toothbrush. you know, some people too kan-chiong, go put shampoo/soap on their toothbrush! haha! LOL. ok. im just exaggerating. heh. ok. then rushingly siap-ed. and as i was about to leave, my sandals were missing!! WTH?! sandal ponn nak curik ke? haha. so i had no choice but to wear pumps. i left the house smiling until the point i saw a crane? haha. and i thought the walkway was closed. but it wasn't. so i went on. bussed down to bgss. at the traffic light, i saw acad on the opposite side. heh. missed him yaw! anyways, i went on with my 'journey'. and met the two lovelies. then i was ike telling them who i saw and for a moment, i was on cloud 9. heh. for that moment aje. and so, we bussed down in 67 to tamp inter. we weren't sure if the mall was open that early. hah! so we walked around. and the initial plan of eating at ljs was cancelled and we ate at food culture. i had my Fish Ban Mian, naughty dolly had her Chicken Rice and baybe yumie had her Mutton Briyani. lol. SEDAAAAAAP SIARH!! after food, i bought my sprite!! heh. then walked around tampines one. tiring dok!! haha. when the two lovelies headed home, i decided to go MP Library alone. heh. suddenly want to be left alone gitu kn? haha. and there i met ain(BRDSS). i didn't talk much with her. then i farmvilled. and played typing maniac. bursted into laughter when viewing this vid on a japanese comedian who fall into hot water pitfalls! haha. and now, im blogging as i'm listening to Jangan Menangis Sayang. i swear i miss my WAHID! :'( *sobsob* it was our one year and one month ytd. but sadly, we didn't talk. i swear i'm being patient here because i love him damn bloody much! but how long more do i have to suffer in silence? can i break out into tears and screams?! or can i just meet him!!! OHMYGAWD!!! these are my silent cries for you b.
here is what the lyrics read.

Sampainya hati mu
Buatku tertunggu-tunggu
Kemana kau sayang
Tidur malam tak menentu
Rindu merindu selama ini
Ku takut kan menjadi kenangan

Aku menangis sayang
Bila kau tiada
Tak sanggup rasanya aku
Berjauhan dari mu
Resah hati ku

Jangan menangis sayang
Ku seperti dulu
Rindu ku hanya padamu
Cinta ku hanya untukmu
Buat selamanya

Kalau padi kata padi
Tidak aku tertampi-tampi
Kalau benci kata benci
Tidak aku nanti terus menanti

Berjanjilah kau sayang
Hanya aku di hati mu
Aku dah berjanji hanya kau di hati

this is super true. and its what im going through.
I'M YEARNING FOR YOU, B!

double fillet-o-fish.

2009-08-17T22:10:00.009+08:00

i ended my night early. i consider it early. like 12midnight? still woke up late. probably due to my restlessness during the night's sleep. hence i felt super duper tired! and swined all the way through tha morning until 1130hrs. actually i woke up at early. like at 0830hrs. took pocket money and then had breakfast with kakak eiyra. she went off for school and i continued swining till 1130hrs. hah! i showered rushingly! coz i thought i was late. i wasn't sure of what time i'm supposed to meet naddy. heh. and so, i called her and agreed to meet at 2pm at bedok inter. i bussed down bedok inter after lunch(nasi lemak). i was early. heh. so i went over to bedok library. met naddy and we went to buy bbt. heh. i had strawberry yoghurt while naddy had strawberry oreo. and we bussed down to siglap centre (14). crapped a lot in the bus with naddy. hah! one of it was me drinking her bbt and commenting that it tasted like oreo strawberry. LOL-ed! ok. and then studied at siglap centre macs. nad studied while i lapp-ied for a while before studying. i just realised that i never had a pic with naddy before. like just the two of us. hah! and she was aww-ed by the fact that i realised that. heh. cute kan si kecik ni?! chatted with baby azree! heh. *he always make my heart skip a beat! <3 so friends, if i were to suffer from any cardiac diseases in the future, you know that one of the culprits is him! heh. and i started studying only because my lappy died! *sobsob* ); ok. studied and crapped at the same time. heh. after that we makan double fillet-o-fish!!! heh. SEDAAAAP SIARHH!! and then crapped with anisah otp. heh. after a while, we went home. walking. to the bus-stop actually. in the middle of the way, naddy suddenly needed that toilet sooooo badly. heh. so we went back to caltex. before that she was like asking me larr, whether caltex got toilet or not. it had a 5-star toilet!! heh. and she said it was like toilet hotel. xP nadd.. nadd... AND FINALLY, I HAD MY FIRST PICTURE WITH NAD!!! in the toilet! heh. rather than nthg right? after like four months being friends. heh. we sight-see the houses around the area. one attracted me soooo much that i feel like going back to that place. the house belonged to a muslim i guess. heh. the gate looked like a mosque's gate and the house number was written in arabic numerals! how cool kn? however, the house is situated opposite a church! hah. but it'll only make it easier for me. heh. when i reached home, there was this cat that was so manje manje with me. heh. like meow-ing at my leg. so i pitied it and went back the kedai kueh to get it an ayam goreng (fried chicken wing). then got home. i was trying to facebook from just now. but it suck lahh!! dang it! so now, i blog about today before i end my night.

to nadirah c, i don't want you to come apologising to me not knowing the reason why i am mad at you. for me to know and for you to find out.
to baby azree, heh. IMISSYOU! xP
to naddy, can't wait for your birthday to come! sumpah i got loads of surprises for you!! heh.
to baybe yumie&naughty dolly, can't wait to go out with you guys tomorrow morning.

G'NIGHT babats!!

cookies&cream!

2009-08-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

heh. ok. i haven't been updating recently. been busy and tired. ok. so here it goes. friday was simulation for me. there was consolidation lecture in the morning for an hour. then off we went to the library to catch some movies. and then puff. went in to take temp. AND I GOT FEVER!! DARN IT! i can't possibly be going home and not coming for simulation right? i wouldn't be able to go or attatchment then!! ok. so with the help of rinny and nad, i sneaked back into school. then after the whole ting, we went home. and as for saturday, i sat at home, swining! hah! LOL. making up my lost sleeps. is there such thing?! then talked to bby azree. heh. ok. as for sunday, not much thing happened. i get to eat my long-waited cookies&cream ice-cream!! woooooots~! heh. soo happy. i was high on it for a moment just now. heh. ok. i'm waiting for bby azree to come online. MISS HIM! xP bluek!
ok.
dah.

NYP-ian.

2009-08-13T16:03:00.002+08:00

ytd was all fine and laughters until the point of time i met azzam. all was HELL! fuck it! knnbccb!!! he is like forcing things out of me lah. this is so super unlike my baby whom i miss damn much!! hais.. i swear i've been thinking of showing up at his doorstep and surprise him?! anyways, i have my own plans of getting him something and i give myself until before hari raya. I DIE DIE MUST GET HIM THAT THING BEFORE HARI RAYA COMES!! ok. and today, i slept like pig. i didnt even realise the the cupboard key was given to me. but shockingly i realised that dee was still asleep when she was supposed to have woken up. so i told nadirah to wake her up. and then i was lost in my beauty sleep until 0830hrs. and i texted nad asking her what time is should meet her. and off for shower then rushed out. coz i was late. off to teman anisah for her dental appointment and to NASI AYAM PENYET!! sedap siarhh! *slurp!* heh. then we walked around in search of tazmania soft toy. we didnt managed to get hold of it so we proceeded down to bugis to get nad's jazz for attatchment. after that we headed down to ngee ann polytechnic. for the fun of it. my first time here. i really hope baby comes back quick. coz seriously, i swear in my name that there are no other guys like him. all the rest are like fucking fuckers!!! knnbccb! sume nak nonok! mampos je tak nak!!! dah. buat darah aku up jek.

my national day.

2009-08-11T13:37:00.008+08:00

ok. the wireless at home is killing me! urgh! i cant update. so here goes the highlights for my sunday and monday. as planned, i went out. with taufiq, deeyanah, rohaizad, ummy and kak mardiah. first we went to parkway parade. ummy and kak mardiah went to have lunch while the four of us went around parkway parade snapping pictures of how people celebrate their national day. then off to east coast beach. for the same objective. then i bought mccafe's double chocolate for only $1.95. xP ok. then i wanted to eat my nasi ayam penyet. so we headed down to lucky plaza where there are thousands of philippinos and thais and other foreingers. ok. maybe im just exaggerating. xP we had my nasi ayam penyet and i was super duper smiles all the way from the moment we stepped in the restaurant till the last bite of the food! i was smiling from cheek to cheek! xDDDD FINALLY!! ok. then we headed for al-falah mosque and then to padang. we wanted to go to esplanade. but can't. coz it was closed. snapped pictures. we were supposed to be happy and excited during the fireworks display weren't we? unfortunately i wasn't. i was crying inside. i remembered how it was the last time. happily watched the fireworks burning with baby. and when i couldn't see, because i was too short and everyone around were so tall *including him*, he actually piggy-backed me.how sweet you must be saying. and i shall reply with an 'i know' xP and there were so many couples around. JEALOUSED! after thee event, we headed home. mummy treated us to macs. wooots~! and i and kakak eiyra slept late becuase we had a war with flying cockroaches!!! eeeW!! disgusting! all in all, we killed a total of 13 cockroaches in just an hour! WTH KN? haha! ok. so we slept at 3 am. and had to wake up like 8?! urgh!! fuck it!! my monday was spent slacking. i didn't even study for wed's test!!! haiyah.. I LOST MY WALLET!!!! ;( baby gave me that wallet... ok. move on. and today, thought that there was no school. but there was. it ended at 11 plus. i randomly missed syafiq. xP was looking out for him when we were in school. but to no avail, we didn't even bump into him. so here i am, now, sitting at nad's house, blogging. this is a no-need to say thing that I MISS BABY!!!!

lack of love.

2009-08-08T21:27:00.005+08:00

saturdays are always boring. i didnt have a choice but to wake up early. and so i did. crapped around with kak zi then off for lunch. then out to clementi for a birthday celebration. there was kuda kepang performance being put up. this one was the real one. as in the *makan sabut kelapa and pijak kaca and makan ROKOK?!? wahaha. *shred the husk of the coconut with teeth, stepping on glass without being cut and eating cigarettes. ok. and so, it was an experiece to see all these. this is one video i found that shows what i've seen earlier today. but i'm not sure if its the same group or not.

these things don't make me think of whats happened to me. hais.. ohh darn. ok. i know this sounds kinda busted! but hell yeah mayn. if u were me, only then you would understand.i am so lacking of love. *shakes head* really no one has managed to win my heart the way baby and pocong did. ok. lets not talk about this.

when we were at clementi, we went to another direction. and past clementi mrt station and central. i recalled how i used to walk there with baby. those times are still fresh on my mind. icould remember vividly what he said while we were walking by the road side when i was having my menses cramp. so cute of him. BABY, IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT NO MATTER HOW POCONG HAS WIN MY HEART, YOU STILL TOP HIM. IN EVERYTHING. still wondering if anyone could ever win my heart the way you did. ); IMISSYOUB!

national day weekend.

2009-08-07T18:09:00.008+08:00

howdy bloggers. xP ahahah! i didn't blog ytd. TOO TIRED!! ok. anyways. the highlights for ytd was that we went to pastamania. we, as in a hand full of people from the class. had so much fun!! i had my penne creamy chicken! it was super yummy lahh! heh. after that was arcade time. air hockey, guitar heroes, drum mania, car racing, motor racing and many more down the list. the most important thing of ytd's arcade event was the waiting for sweets to fall at the candyland machine. WTF?! ahha! pathetic sioll. ok. then back to school. then consolidation lecture for HS 1085 - Family and Community Health. then off to city hall and out with fir. as soon as i reached home, i put my bag, changed to my sleeping attire and off to lala-land! urgh!! damn tired larr. i woke up fresh this morning. VERY! but wanted to sleep more. heh. showered and off to meet naddy at bedok mrt. as usual, we took the train to p.r and back to r.p. we only did the psychology revision paper in the train on our way to school. ahahah! and i got the cheeks to say that i didn't get it when the thing was in my bag the whole time. for the whole week! ahahaha! ok. but at least i still did it and know my stuff. after psycho lecture was break for two hours. ate then sat in the library to FARMVILLE! ahaha. ok. err.. then went off for our last tutorial for HS 1086 - Safety in Healthcare. took pictures with Ms Allison. then off for nursing lab. which was taken over by ms Angela. it was real fun! we learnt about specimen collection and Last Office! and i suddenly felt sorrowed. ahaha! but its fine now! laughed like nobody's business in the train. wahahahaha! ohh darn! I MISS BABY!!!!!!!! hais... until when will this thing prolong? i miss those times when he called me ayang. and i missed those times when we laughed our hearts out together! ok. now its the pictures time to do the talking.

featuring baby's wallet! <3

mummy scolding. xP

PIERCE!

the peeps!

dear god, please help me keep baby in safe hands. and bless him with the best of everything. give him the strength. bless him with the best of health, wealth and iman. ILOVEYOU!
dear guardian angel, tell him that i love him so damn much and that NO ONE, really NO ONE can replace him!

*laughed to hard today. expect to cry tonight.

two weeks to ramadan.

2009-08-05T16:29:00.005+08:00

ok. as stated above, its two weeks to ramadan! and i haven't finish making up my past fast! this acts as a reminder yaw! ok. so i lazily dragged myself out of bed this morning. i dreamt of baby again last night. haiss.. but i'm not so sure of what exactly. ok. then lazily picked what baju to wear for today. and lazily showered. but still early. hah! then went to meet naddy at 0730hrs at bedok mrt. as usual. to p.r then r.p. then to school. slept in the train!! hahaha! this morning's safety lecture was ok uhh. can't complain. it was on bioterrorism and consolidation. then break for two hours. felt ike sleeping. managed to for a while after my meal and a puff. i didn't pay much attention to the second lecture. was at the back of the lecture hall playing lappy. :DDDDDDDDD exams coming still can like that uhh? haiyah.. *shake head. haha! then went for mask fitting. the bitter thing was so bitter that i almost vomitted!! ok. then out of school for a puff. *two actually. then back in again. coz i had so much time to waste. waiting for 6pm. going out! :DDD

ok. so ytd was didi sharinah's last day with us. ); hais.. everybody's leaving.

why ohh why?!

bubbye didi! gonna miss you!

and so my thoughts about girls gettin nice guys and my dream. i have thought it over. that i don't want to blog about it. heh. let me just keep it to myself aje. SORRAYEE!!!

ok.

bye!

dad's 46th.

2009-08-04T21:58:00.004+08:00

and so today is dad's 46th. who cares when i don't?! anyways, met naddy and ayda at 7 at eunos mrt. then off to school. i was so damn sleepy today! urgh! super lazy to get up earlier just now!!! i finally had the courage to tell ibnu the long kept secret! hais... ok. then i skipped lecture. i havent do my reflective journal! sat outside lecture theatre to do it. together with manoj, geri and carmen. then along came elaine. webcammed with geri and some with naddy and rinny. just gonna upload some. coz uploading all will take a lot of time!

look at the lecturer behind. xP

randomness!

love my beads! *aisyah's actually. xP

domokun bite my finger! ):

she gets high on highlighters! xP

ok.
and so, after that was break for one hour. ate then go for a puff. then went for bio lecture, which i didn't pay attention to. heh. slept halfway through and the other half was spent playing game at lappy. after that was our sucky group presentation. which we didnt plan at all. who doing what slides was only distributed in the class!! wth kn?! ahah! ok. and then was another hour of break. wanted to go for a puff, but not enough time. and i was like suffocating without puffing for a few hours!! urgh! darn. ok. during bio lab, mr raj came late. he FORGOT about us. AGAIN!! ahah! then, following that was safety tutorial. it was intan's group to present. and i was like super sleepy!!! heh. hmm.. finally, school ended! get to puff! :D home was the next destination!!!! went home with ammar. ohh darn. so tired!! AND I DONT HAVE ANYMORE MONEY!! for the week!!! heh. abbas came!! heh.

yas: "abbas, gigi mane?"
abbas: "tikus makan"
ahahahah! how cute?
translation.
yas: "abbas, where have your teeth gone to?"
abbas: "the rat ate it for dinner!"

i think my thoughts and ytd's dream will be postponed to tmrw. heh.
sorraye!
ok. BYE!

school.

2009-08-04T12:19:00.001+08:00

currently in bio lecture which i am NOT paying attention to. heh. just suddenly no mood to do so. :X and so i managed to get hold of pocong. he is super unlike botak. :( haiss... super different lah. I WANT MY WAHID BOTAK BACK!!!!! DAMN YOU, D****!!! take him away from me. ); URGHHHHH!!!! i swear i feel like going to vivo city; sky park. i need to scream my hearts out!!! i have more than one heart mind you! xP haiss...
dah.
BYE!

why?

2009-08-03T23:09:00.005+08:00

ohhkayy. i dreamt about baby last night. hais... talk about it in tomorrow's post. so today i met naddy at 0900hrs at r.p. rinny and ammar and raihan was waiting for us at yck mrt. then school until 1200hrs. ate at north then went to the library. mat rep was there too. just a table away from us. he was with his friend. went for a puff with rinny. then lepak for a while then off to meet kak eiyra at yck mrt. we initially planned to meet the three, nad, farah and aisyah at cathay cineleisure for a movie. it's farah's 15th today. and so we wanted to celebrate together. but it was a cock-up coz they wanted to watch harry potter. i dont think its worth watching the second time. so we suggested hangover. however only two is above 16. so yah. then kak eiyra and myself headed down to parkway to get the pressie for farah. and we got her perfume from the body shop. it is being shared among 6 people. if not, 5. after that, we both went down to mccafe to lepak. all in all, we bought 1 large fries, 2 large fries, 1 large coke, 1 next chill. lappy's batt was down so can't use. ):

we chit-chatted until like 9. then home! showered. then tried to get hold of pocong. but he rejected. haiyah.. anyways, tomorrow is an early schooling day. so i should be off to bed now. maybe after farmville. heh.

condolences.

2009-08-02T20:24:00.008+08:00

dearest taufiq, my greatest condolences to the loss of your late grandmother. may allah bless her.

taufiq and myself ended our night last night with eating and fighting over chocolate. nestle crunch. while the rest of the boys are watching television.

his saliva was spilling on me. DISGUSTING!

food fight!

my initial plan of cleaning up the room last night was not fulfilled. but we did some pre-cleaning. our own. slept only at arnd 12plus midnight. the plan of waking up straight after subuh was being agreed upon the three of us. :D BUT!!! only i didn't wake up. idk why. xP nad woke me up. tu pon nk tido balek! we brought lke every single thing out of the room. and sweeped the floor and mopped it too. nad cleaned the kipas and tingkap. then had my shower then followed by lunch. after that, prepared for netball training which was not led by abg sopi. slack like hell siarh today's training. following that was shower again then dinner. and now, here, blogging away. facebooking at the same time. today is carefree day. :DDDD

ok. dah.

disappointment.

2009-08-01T22:03:00.002+08:00

i opened my eyes to today quite late. i was super tired. slept at like 2plus am last night. i wanted to sleep more. boost my energy that have been dilapidated over the week! ok. so, i woke up and planned to clean the room which was in a complete mess! we need to reshuffle a little bit of things. here and there. had my shower at 11plus am. then took my lunch. i forgot that nad will be bringing food back for me. :x initially i asked for roti prata telor, kuah campor. but she got me bandito pockett instead. it's ok. better than nothing right?

yum yum!

CPOs of the home. :D *no pictures please!

:DDDDDDDDDD

so engrossed!

enjoying to the very last bit!

whats left of it.
THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE TREAT NADIRAH C!
after asar prayers, i took a nap. too tired. got up for evening prayers. then had dinner. following that i 'cleared up' the unwanted things on my lappy. rearranged everything. i cant stand seeing things not in its place or even in a mess! planning to further clean up the room later tonight. the raspberries in my farm withered. because i forgot to harvest it when it's ripen! ); anyways...
i shall end here and now.

to ibnu, hope you enjoyed your day out with the soccer boys. :DDD hah! I HAVE A LOT TO UPDATE YOU ABOUT. hope i get the courage to tell you the secret soon. still waiting for the right time. take care.

TGIF.

2009-07-31T22:39:00.012+08:00

today is like any other normal days. nothing special. school starts at 1000hrs today. met naddy at 0830hrs at bedok inter. then as usual, we took the train to p.r. then back to r.p. :DD *how cool?* met darling ayda at kembangan. as planned. then off to school together. got my morning dose of next chill. xD on our way in, we saw 'mat rep'. nad, you know who i mean. :D haha! anyways, we have been bumping into him quite often these days. fated or what? ok. so psycho lect was okay. it always made me feel sleepy. after lect was break for 3 hours. saw MY prince in the canteen. ate bee hoon goreng and had green tea! spent the remaining approximately one and a half hours lappy-ing.

lappy girls. xD

webcam with ayda. yasmeen at canteen; ayda at library.

Faizah;Geri;Yasmeen. used-to-be netballmates. :D

shot taken by geri. :D

:DD time past really fast. then we had safety tut at 1300hrs. ms alisson was suddenly so nice today. idk why? after that was nursing lab. had loads of fun! laughing was really tiring. after school, nad and myself headed down to bedok sheng siong to get the instant cake-mix. then walked back to her crib. drank red bull. we 'baked' the cake together with CY. heh. another new friend made in the week. as we baked, we snapped pictures as well. then nad's mum was like asking me to eat. self-service. LOL. i think its going to be a norm for me to come over nad's place every friday. :DD planning on which day to make for ayda's. super long time never go her house. but got meet her mum and dad. the last time was like exactly two weeks ago. when we went to town together. okok. get back on track. i lef her crib at 2200hrs and reached home at 2215hrs. how fast? haha! anyways, and so here i am blogging basically about the things that happened for the day.

to ibnu, i'm sure you'll be able to move on. not now, also later can. :D heh. enjoy yourself with the boys tomorrow!

*going for some seminar tomorrow. -.- MALAS!

ok. dah.

suffering in silence.

2009-07-30T23:15:00.005+08:00

woke up late today. simply because i slept late the night before. i got the keychains alrd! :DDDDD

nice kan? heh.
we were like super late lah. then still got time to go macs and buy breakfast meal. LOL. put mask on my face last night. :D the skin feels super light lah after the mask tingy.

bio lecture. bio tut. family and community tut. break for three hours. randomly camwhored in the library. :D

one of the many random pose we took.
safety lecture. out with darling ABR. went to bugis. MAKAN. then head down to bedok reservoir. with newly met friends. adiyat, afiq and i-don't-know his name. HAH! we went lepaking at bedok reservoir. &there is internet connection there. surprising uhh?! its like literally the reservoir la. haha! we like watch some music videos there and then kumar. went home after that. just finished preparing for tmrw's tutorial presentation on bioterrorism. damn tired siarhh! tmrw is another day. but thank god, it's friday. :DDD
baby, how long will this go on? i don't want to leave you. and you know that for a fact. and it is true. i'll just keep praying that this thing will end soon. i am not utterly sad or dissapointed by the way we talked just now. and i am not at all surprised u were like so called mad at me. i knew it was coming. and so i was pretty prepared for it. i didn't want to further aggitate u. but at least i got to hear to the soothing voice of yours once again. like after almost one solid month! at least i know you're still part of the public. that made me be strong and determined to be here for you. no worries. i'll be here if you should need me. and that is a promise. but please, don't take so long. i can't bare the pain. I NEED YOU!

evening.

2009-07-29T17:29:00.016+08:00

afternoon lecture ended at 1350hrs today. intan, nadirah and i didn't know where to go for the next hour. then we saw miss huang fang and miss kamaliah. and so we became volunteers for the nurses' day cum national day celebration at the 'k' garden. we helped the SHS club people. then when they called for the pledge takers volunteers, only like a few turned up. like three guys from i don't know where and the five of us from group 2. which is like myself, intan, shamu, nadirah and rini. how pathetic? haha! so we were like pulling people asking them to help be part of this. particularly those wearing red or white. :D after the national anthem, pledge taking and cake-cutting ceremony, we went off. on our way out, there was free photograph session which was being held by the photography club people. so we went for it. :D hah! can't wait for the photos to be uploaded in the web. i headed straight down to mp lib. and here i am, blogging. getting more sick by the day. x(

look at the straws! cool uh?! hah! RASTAFARI.

anyways, these are my "masterpieces".

Caption: Photography-ing in process.
Caption: ohh, talk to the hand!

Caption: the skillful hands of Nadirah A. Nasir.

Caption: before going to tioman to play angklung, read do'a?

Caption: Muhammad; Allah's messenger.

Caption: the ring is an intstrument that will bind the keys to two hearts. <3

a slot for the always-on-my-mind person.

I MISS YOU EVEN WHEN YOU'RE RIGHT BY MY SIDE!

*my day is full of laughter today. xD

morning.

2009-07-29T11:32:00.003+08:00

being a bimbo today. had my dose of red bull as soon as we touched down yio chu kang mrt. haha! then go for lecture which was supposed to end at 1100hrs. but an hour early. next lecture is at 1300hrs. loads of people are wearing red and white today. :DDDDD SEMANGAT!!! had egg prata and banana milk. treated nad to mee rebus. and here i am wasting the other about 2 hrs of break, blogging. hah! this is a random comment. i think i cant have my red bull dosage early in the morning on an empty stomach. coz i think it makes me turn into a bimbo for the day.

debilitated.

2009-07-28T21:43:00.005+08:00

and so today, first lect starts at 8am. the day was quite fine. had macs for breakfast.
BIG BREAKFAST MEAL. i am feeling extra ecstatic because, I GOT AN 'A' FOR BIO PRACTICAL! so damn happy! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD heh. slept for 20mins during bio lect!!! *cannot you know.* we did blood typing for bio prac today. i'm an A+. it just reminds me of Twilight. edward skipped the bio pract coz he knew they were doing blood-typing that day. LOL. todays 1086's tut was fun! the part i liked the most was the short role play. so funny ehh mr chandran?! *even the fullstop is on the forehead* xD zaidy took me from yio chu kang mrt. he insisted on meeting. even after i told him i wasn't dressed up. all i wore today was torn-jeans and a black tee. how nonsensical? then bring me go town plak tu. haiyo. damn malu. we sat and enjoyed the breeze outside esplanade. reached home at 2030hrs.

to harrydenn, be strong buddy! this are life's ups and downs. *always look on the bright side of life.* heh. :DDD anyways, i am happy enough that i got to make you laugh just now.
to adeliyana, reread my post. i've tried to rephrase my words. i hope you can decipher the message easily.
to taufiq, sayang orgnye; bukan giginye!
to deeyanah, get well soon & HAPPY 6TH MONTHASARY! :D
to baybe yumie, hang in there! i feel you babe! :D
to my dearest love of all, tomorrow marks one month of us not seeing each other. sayang, i think of you almost every breath i take. baby, i want to be here for you to give you the strength. not weaknesses. i am not going to cry in front of you cause its only going to make you weak. so allow me to cry before sleep. here's the song you always like to sing to me. i missed those times! more importantly, I MISS YOU!

*i'm all smiles today.:D

supper.

2009-07-28T00:19:00.004+08:00

FIRRRRRRRRR!
hah! thanks for the late night supper ehh. LOL. if u get what i mean. not literally supper lah. but he layan me in the middle of the night where he's supposed to sleep and take a rest from after the wisdom tooth extraction surgery. i call that late night supper treat. haha!
there is always a part for the BF.
so here it comes.
miss you la bby!!!!!!
&as always; the labels.

monday.

2009-07-27T22:01:00.004+08:00

after typing so long, i didn't save in drafts.
now, i'm tired of typing it all over again. the title is like that because i lazy want to type long long. haha! my english is so broken! anyways, lets just mention the important-'must-remeber' stuffs.
like, movie catched today; Harry Potter. which we initially planned to go as almost a class. but in the end only ammar, nad, rini and myself turn up. hah! and so, we went home straight after not getting my cinnamon melts. ); *AYDA, LETS GO TO CITY HALL AGAIN TO EAT CINNAMON MELTS! PLS! IM CRAVING FOR IT!!! &&NUR FARAH'AIN WAFA! quick get me a new mp3! my journey to school is super boring without music!
to adeliyana, rufini and artini, do you think i got the bloody time of my life to entertain your childish acts? &oh, kaypoh pe aku? i am a friend who cares and is concerned about her other friends. especially those that are close to her and have made an impact in her life before. so, this is my responsibility! u just don't have people like me in your life thats whye! anyways, as i said, i've got no time. so we shall meet up on thusrday and settle it all out. alrite. i so not happy with the three of you! &oh, my previous post wasn't refering to you three. it would really be a waste of time to blog about you three. i know i am wasting my time now! just to kill time. LOL.
ok dah.

dream.

2009-07-26T14:47:00.000+08:00

let's start off with ytd's syarahan. it all went fine. i miss bby so much! ); i remembered how it was when he was still a staff. we would plan to wear the same coloured baju kurung. and bile jumpe tu cm malu malu la konon. padehal padehal. heh! anyways. i think of him too much that i dreamt of him in my sleep. i was looking for him at an MRT station. somewhere in town. idk where exactly. and i was like crawling on my four limbs instead of walking on my two feets. and i didnt use the escalator and climbed up the stairs on the four limbs instead. ohh gosh! what are these dreams trying to tell me? hais...
anyways, i am so damn pissed with the immatured attitude of the three. if you think its you, then its you. if not then, done!
let's drop it about the three of them. waste of time only talk about them. hah!
as for today, nothing much is happening and is going to happen. except for the fact that im blogging now and facebooking later on and farmvilled just now. no netball training today. looking forward for tomorrow!!
HARRY POTTER!! here i come!
:DDDDDDDDDD
ohh! ohh! and i just remebered that naddy and i made keychains for ourselves! can't wait for it to be ready! :D will upload photos of it. *insya'allah.*
i really need to meet bby A.S.A.P! miss him damn much siah!

saturday.

2009-07-25T15:09:00.004+08:00

today, shall be my mugg-at-home-and-watch movies day. it is super boring. not going anywhere. except for later. there's syarahan at bedok stadium. leaving at 6pm. anyways...
the boys left for malacca earlier this morning. at 2am to be precise. GOOD LUCK BOYS! DO US PROUD YEAH! :D
&so, life is as per normal. following the house programmes. farmvilling. facebooking. etc. etc.
i can't wait for monday to come. WATCHING HARRY POTTER! with my peeps. :D it'll be such great fun we're going to have! *excited!!* heeh!

miss.

2009-07-24T19:49:00.000+08:00

DARN!
i missed blogging so much,
i read my previous blog, thats why.
I NEED HELP WITH THE BLOGSKIN!!!
can someone like help me or something?!
please...
:D